what if the open window hadn’t tempted if mom and dad were still awake if my ride was late how would it all look now?
what if the prints disappeared from the glass if he’d remembered to lock his front door if the moon didn’t soar through the pane indicating the liquor he stored in the drawer?
what if the vodka had never touched tongue?
what if he’d seen me before it was done?
he’d never have finished the rest
but he did and after he swallowed
a paleness appeared in his flesh
do you remember? I asked him
he leaned and he squinted and stared for awhile
I’m the girl that I’ll bet you’d hoped you’d forget the one that you left alive
what if he’d had a gun or a blade I’d have been sent to You just like him
but he didn’t You made sure of that and before long blood spilled from either end
as he bled out I recited the verse you provided in my dreams just one night before
Ben I said how’s the vodka? I added a touch of my own little flair… if ever a girl walks alone in the street it makes certain that you can’t be there the judge and the jury may have been blind but you forget there’s one Who sees all He sent me to you and bestowed the power of poison and watching you fall
what if he hadn’t pinned me in the dirt and given motive for revenge my life would have been perfect – – never knowing the worst
but it happened I saw You descend
with one moment changed my life would be gone the real world I’d never have seen
but it couldn’t be different I know that You did this and know that You did it for me I’d never have met You I’d never have seen my power to kill those that justice misdeemed I am your soldier I am your machine and now in the moonlight I can roam free